It's been a whirlwind, but at least it's been relatively smooth moving through it.

I'm gonna be a bit vulnerable here. More so than I really probably should -- but I am lonely. Lonely enough that I accepted a last minute trip to Florida (expenses paid) to see someone who tried to break up my relationship and then later marriage because they were in love with me. This person wanted to see if we could reconnect after all this time since I am divorced now and obviously single (i.e. a bit lonely). I'll give you the short version -- we didn't reconnect. I was told I was like a stranger and no feelings remained. This really bothered me more than I wish it had. It's been 8 years since I last saw this person, and they spent all this money to get us together in the same place.... if anyone could look at my life now and me and still say they loved me... this was my only chance of that. Well, I didn't get that in the end. Oh well.


I pissed a lot of people off going away for four days but I'm back now and it's all fine I suppose.


Thanksgiving was fine... I'm just in a weird headspace I guess. I guess it's time to just accept the facts of who/what I am and that being alone may be my calling. Things are simpler that way anyway

Happy Sunday to everyone.