Hello Emmeleia: I see this is your first post here on MSF. Welcome to the forums. Hope you find being here to be of benefit.

The fears you have, with regard the effects your compulsion might have on children, isn't (at least from what I've read here in the forums) all that unusual. You mentioned you're going to be seeing a therapist. That's a good thing. Hopefully therapy will be able to help you both with your compulsion as well as with your fears and your anxiety. And, in the meantime, perhaps being here on the forums can be of some benefit as well. Best wishes...