Hello all!
I am new here and very happy to have found a place with people who may understand what I am going through and possibly offer support and/or advice! I have been taking medications for 5 years now and a few months ago I started having very intense aversions to taking my medication even though it has been incredibly beneficial to me. It happened out of seemingly nowhere, I have this voice in the back of my mind telling me I don't need the medication anymore because I have been doing so well the past couple of years since I became stable on my medication. I know very well that stopping my medication is not smart but I keep going weeks of taking it on and off and I feel very unstable. I am currently on day 1 of taking them again and just want to get some advice from others before I stop taking them again. Every time I stop taking them my mood and behavior become erratic and I cannot control or stop it ( I have rapid cycling Bipolar disorder for reference) and the erratic behavior and constant mood swings cause severe mental exhaustion. Does anyone have advice on how to continue medication despite something telling me that I don't need it, I just don't know how to help myself and I am not yet ready to talk to my therapist or psychiatrist about it. Any help or advice or support at all is very helpful and appreciated so I thank you all in advance! and I am not shy about sharing my other disorders or the medication I take so if you feel that could help any advice you have to offer please do ask!