I'm sorry to hear about this. In reading your post, I can relate. As far as the pharmacy goes, I'm thinking that you're dealing with people who are ill, medicated, and may have some resentments because they are not healthy. I'm on medication myself and it's for a medical reason. I guess it's messed with my mind. Maybe it's time for you to get into some other field of work, it sounds like to me. If so, I hope you'll find something right for you. It's happened to me in the past.

I noticed you said that you'd like to do jewelry making. That's interesting to me because my sister is very much into it. She recently made rings you slip on your fingers; and they looked impressive to me. I don't know how she's doing with it lately. I think she'd be pretty good at selling if she were better organized for herself.

I can relate to you saying you put efforts and get nothing much in return. That's similar to me. I felt like I've put myself out a lot to better my life and it never worked out.

I don't have any suggestions or advice. I'm hoping the best for you. I know exactly how you feel.