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Originally Posted by CrystalM
I think my biggest reason for not taking them is thinking that I am strong enough to handle it on my own, and it often does happen when I am in a particularly strong manic episode. I just get so confident and convince myself that I can handle it but then I come down from the episode and my logic kicks in and I realize the mistake I have made.
I have been trying so hard to talk with my psychiatrist about it but I just clam up when I get the opportunity. I was stable for four years with no issues and then this started, about four months ago.
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Sometimes we need not talk. Have you considered writing down these thoughts and either sending them to your psychiatrist by email/text/even snail mail? Or printing them out and just handing the document to them? I've done that in the past.
Your doctor WANTS to know about your breakthrough mania and how it's affecting your medication compliance. Having breakthrough mania is not a "bad behavior". It's illness. Your doctor needs to know so that they can deal with it. Open truthful communication is admired and ultimately does you good.