I finally have my med situation sorted, at least for now. For the past four days, I had no lithium to take and was inconsistently taking my other meds. Basic gist: I now have three work locations a week and my lithium scrip was at a location I wasn't heading to until today. So, I had to call the pharmacy and get it transferred. Normal, but annoying, logistics. The inconsistent med schedule happened because I slept through two evening rounds and rushed out the door, forgetting a morning dose.
Definitely feeling the effects of inconsistent meds this week. Biggest one is rumination and paranoia and impulsivity all rolled together. Did something impulsive that's not particularly horrible and got me a tut-tut from the Walmart liason. Because of the other lady threatening my job and my increasingly disorganized state, I'm now paranoid my liason is going to go to my boss and demand I be removed from rotation at that store, which may or may not cost me my job.
It's a little thing, but the little things are the things people disproportionately care about in my experience. (Sweaty feet. Use of a key.)
As far as my job is concerned, I managed to avoid the worst of the hour cuts by getting myself a third store to work in. That third store is still the same distance away as my other two stores and it still grants me a five day work week. Basic gist: Each store has it's own pool of hours for shifts, so giving me three stores lets me dip into three different pools for hours. No complaints there, since I'm getting near a full work week for December!
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"I must not fear.
Fear is the mind-killer.
Fear is the little-death that brings total obliteration.
I will face my fear.
I will permit it to pass over me and through me.
And when it has gone past, I will turn the inner eye to see its path.
Where the fear has gone there will be nothing. Only I will remain."
-Litany Against Fear (Dune)
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