I'm sure these feelings are cause I've skipped a few meds. I'm currently listening to music.

I was at a Christmas party and declared my feelings. I cannot hide how I feel. I'm single I'm depressed about it. But I don't want just anyone. I want someone who loves me completely. Flaws and all.

I don't want to extend my life in any way shape or form. I also won't end it, even if I wish I could I have owed I wouldn't because my son did and that would crush my daughter. She is my only reason for living. And she's grown.

listening to music and crying cause I'm just so sad at how my life has turned out. I cannot live with my mistakes. There are too many and I just hate who I am.