I'm not sucidal just not happy. I tell people my real life stories and how I feel and it doesnt matter what I say it just looks bad and people judge me. People slander my name doctors do malpractice so much happens to me. I was assaulted by a female idk just too much it never ends. I try to get up and be a positive role model anyway and people treat me like a sociopath because of it. I suppose it's not easy. But why should life be easy right I just wish I had a way to draw right now. I could prolly go out and use sticks and dirt. BTW this stress I'm under is so bad at my last injection I passed out due to it.