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I've been at war with myself since childhood. I can argue either side of an argument. I can go pro or con. Can be just as convincing on either side. I'm squarely in the center. Because of this mental battle I never can decide which way to go. But everybody knows that there is good and bad , positive and negative , the world HAS to have both. Should have been a lawyer. Because of procrastination and indecision I have not been able to to achieve any of my , ( what I believe to be ) , life's goals. I simply was a leaf in the wind. Couldn't decide if I had free will or was subject to determinism. Pretty f***** up , right ? I think I hate myself. My father was a scumbag. I guess he did the best he could , ha ha. I loved my mother dearly but I hurt her terribly. She passed over 35 years ago and took part of my heart with her .
Sorry for the rant.......sending out vibes of love.......
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Trying to Live in the Moment
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