After the whole Stutz/love conversations with P I was feeling a bit more loveable (talked some about this in the Stutz thread). Yesterday we actually met in person instead of video because one leg of his work trip got cancelled due to weather and he was still in town. I've been struggling lately with eating issues and some stuff came up about how my ex would put me down, basically insinuating that I was a pig. He would do it in a joking manner, like I was supposed to find it amusing as well, and would even tell the "joke" to other people in our life. I don't feel lovable at all right now. I really thought that with this recent discussion about how my therapist feels about me, it would make a difference, but this one thing comes up and I'm straight back to feeling unloved. Why does everything have to be so difficult?