Thanks All! Basically my T takes 10 weeks of holiday off a year.

This is no problem!!

However, it does mean that when she's working I do not like to miss appointments as basically she only ever works 6 or 7 weeks before she's off again.

I am severely disabled requiring 24 hour care. I will basically have the physical care needs of a baby all my life.

Sometimes due to my disability, or due to my carers commitments, I may have to swap appointments. My T facilitates this but begrudgingly, she huffs and puffs and makes me feel naughty.

In my view, if I ever felt able to miss my appointments for my own reasons, in addition to the 20 I miss because of her (I see her twice a week) then that would mean I would miss her 20 + my own like 10 which would amount to 30, then I would be in a position to stop altogether, because in my opinion, if you can go 30 weeks without something happily, then you don't really need to be spending your money on it on a regular basis do you?

She makes a big thing of me never wanting to cancel, always reschedule but why would I want to cancel when she already takes 10 weeks off anyway? If I was in a position to be cancelling my appointments in addition to the 20 sessions/10weeks she already takes off, then I would not need counselling and would not be paying her in the first place. I'd be spending my money on other things.

I just feel low and as if she's a bit naive, a bit dense, not understanding my disability and not really making reasonable adjustments with grace.

It also takes her about 3 minutes to roll up the carpet and move the chair before I can enter the room every time..

I just feel low about it, she says it's black and white thinking, to me it's logical. I wouldn't be paying her if I didn't need counselling and why should I not try and rearrange rather than cancel when I know we miss 20 sessions due to her anyway.

Doesn't help we are working on trauma at the moment! How long do your therapists take off per year?