I feel helpless. I am going around using a walker, not able to put much if any weight on my left foot. I have trouble making meals, or doing anything. I cannot imagine the hospital bills coming my way, in the many thousands. I am getting allot of help from my neighbors. This just underlines with me how helpless I have been feeling. One neighbor appears to have taken over my care, or so it seems. She has boundary issues, but means well. She also questions much of what I say, even when it comes to the appointments that I make. I am sure it is not actually that bad, but this is how I have been feeling. I snapped at her when I told her the time of an appointment that I have today. She said the usual “Are you sure?”. Of course I am, I am the one who made the appointment! So I calmed down quickly enough, and apologized.

My daughter refuses to help me. The rehab facility met over this matter and scheduled a visit for me from every imaginable source of help. I will have five people visiting me every week. Amazing. The problem now is to schedule their visits with me. Also there are those that are dropping the ball. My case manager at a law firm tells me two weeks later that she does not have the police report yet. So I will have to get the friggin police report for them. Once again, I am worried about what I will owe in hospital bills. I am stressing over it.

I do not know what to do!