It’s good you’re posting here and I agree with divine, you have a writing talent.

I was thinking about the things that help me, I have a tendency to worry and rumination, and one of them is exercising- now I know you have some neck and back problems, but maybe there’s something you can find. A friend loves doing Tai Chi and there’s also Qigong both of which are low impact. There’s something about an exercise routine that can help focus the brain and think that’s one of the ways it’s helpful.

Another thing that can help me is music, upbeat music usually, it can really help my mood.

Sorry to read you’ve been feeling unwell, and hope that’ll settle okay. Did you have diverticulitis (I seem to remember you did?) ? If so might be worth contacting the Dr.