I just wanted to thank you for some of your suggestions. While I am still not able to work (I'm a writer which requires me to be able to live in my head which is spinning) #4 I have embraced. I didn't even realize how much of an old discarded dishrag I was feeling like. I saw a picture of me out in the garden and was horrified. Now my hair is colored and I FINALLY went out and got my eyelashes done. Something I've wanted to try for years but didn't feel deserving. I'm amazed at how it does make a difference in yourinternal dialog