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Dec 07, 2022, 03:28 PM
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Member Since: Jul 2019
Location: Downtown Vibes, California
Posts: 15,701
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Originally Posted by TishaBuv
Did something happen to you, Beth, when you felt that change at 48, or do you think it was biological?
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Thank you TB, I have asked myself that question 10,000 times. I was experiencing a number of serious losses, close together, at the time (mother, aunts and uncles, serious marital problems, pets; especially one very special cat in particular who was my soul-mate...a cruel, cruel loss for me). Lou Reed died that week, but, goodness...??
I also wonder if I was entering into the early stages of menopause at age 48 (I finished meno when I was 54). My daughter was married that year; she was not thrilled about getting married and that weighed on me.
So yes, there were things. I do have bipolar disorder, but I was diagnosed decades ago and have always been in treatment. What confounds me is, that was that autumn. But why did the severe depression and vile anxiety continue - worsen - with each successive autumn for 12 years?
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