Reality is terrifying for me so much that I have to distract myself if thinking about it too much. I go through great lengths to hide from humans but yet I want/need to take care of my best friend in the world, Sally, my plant friend, so life is just a nightmare until I'm financially free and move in a house in the forest alone with my nature friends. But yet loneliness is horrible so I want friends, like me, but it's never happened so far.