Dear T,
There's stuff I want to say to you and stuff I wish I could explore with you, which might help me get past this. But I just don't know if it's safe. I don't know how you'd react or handle it. Or that you'd fully understand that it wouldn't be just about you (you do seem to be getting transference more, at least). The problem is, I feel I'd need to do this with you if it were to have any effect, not some random T that I just met or even R.

Hearing ways in which you feel I have battered you, which I fear tomorrow could end up being, if I ask, is not really going to help me, I don't think. I suppose I could just say that. Or I could say "OK, we can spend 10 minutes on this, then we're moving on. I don't want this to be all about your feelings" (I might put that last part a bit nicer).

Plus I may want to talk about my D, too.

Hoping R can have some ideas--just wish I was talking to her, say, Monday instead of Thursday.

I do think I may need to figure out what you can handle if I'm to consider moving forward with you. I'm just not sure how I feel about things right now--your comments yesterday didn't really help with that. I do wonder if twice a week would be better. Maybe we both need more time in between?

Love,
LT