I got lucky and found a good airbnb, a safe one, but the airbnb owner asked me if I accidentally locked the bathroom door. I was like, "Noooo, there's no way!" But later on it hit me like a ton of bricks that throughout my entire life people have accused me of doing things like that. I've told my past therapists there's a part of me that gets up in the middle of the night and occasionally does naughty things. If it's true that something is in me again then I'm going to sink like a rock. Hopefully I can be purged again!