I had a really horrible session with Dr. T today. I know, I've said this before, but I'm really unsure whether I can continue with him at this point. I mean, maybe to work on stuff like things with my D until I find a new T.

I mean, when it gets to the point where I'm shouting "I ****ing know that!" twice after he had the door open when we were parting ways (so like, others in the office suite could hear--I did apologize for that aspect--that's probably a bad sign. Especially as I don't curse much, at least with him. It was in response to his saying "You're part of my job." Before that, after a really painful session (and confirming he likely wouldn't have availability during his work hours Sunday), he said I could still email him this weekend. To which I said, "Yeah, but you'll charge me for it." Which led to him saying "Well, you're part of my job."

He said some very hurtful things during the session-this isn't just me randomly lashing out or thinking he owed me free emails (he also didn't charge for them at all during the first 2 years of the pandemic, so it's a difficult adjustment. It's only when they hit a certain length or frequency, but he made it fairly clear that I'm at that point now. I do not intend to email him before Monday, if I even keep that session. We both might need a cooling off period if we're to continue in any form at all.)