For some reason I woke up at 2am this morning. By 3:30am I was purging. I'm challenging myself not to do so for the rest of the weekend (mostly because there's a lot of blood now and purging has become next to impossible). Also no cutting for the next week was my deal with my case worker. I went back to bed and missed going out food shopping with my mom so now I have to go out myself. She bought A TON of junk food.

Saco and Pemi are adjusting nicely. Bo is tolerating them pretty well, and even Lu only hits them when they go right up to her. I don't think I mentioned this but Bean ran away while I was in the hospital. He was a vicious fighter outside so I'm thinking he bit off a little more than he can chew and got eaten by a coyote or a bobcat or something.

I want to let Saco and Pemi enjoy the outdoors but maybe I'll get them harnesses and take them for walks or something. They just seem so defenseless right now whereas Bean had lived his whole life prior to coming to us in my aunt's barn/in that area so he had those survival skills sharpened up nicely (or so we thought).

If you've ever lost someone you love and want a good cry here you go: