Hang in there please @Biba_yu. I know how intense and terrible the anxiety and depression, anger, can become. It's very horrible, day in and day out. Depressing.

It is important that you find a way out for your emotional wellbeing. Ongoing suffering is so draining and awful, yes, like hell. If worse comes to worse maybe living somewhere quieter, away from built up residential areas, will be the answer. Yes, somewhere quiet with nice neighbors.