Went OK with Dr. T today. It felt like we were both being really careful in what we said, which I suppose is good. But also felt a bit unnatural. Talked (calmly) about some of the stuff from Friday, some clarifications. Might post more later.

I don't see him again until Friday because I'm seeing R Thursday and didn't want 4 sessions in one week again, in part for financial reasons, but also because it's a lot emotionally--really, I think 3 is becoming that way, hence my looking to go down to 2 sooner than later. But I think the space might be good?

Near the beginning, I did tell him a long story about how I'm bad at lighting matches (the topic came up), which helped make things feel a little less tense and a little more connected. I'm not the only one bad at lighting matches, right? He found it to be strange. I said some of it goes back to nearly burning the 7th-grade science teacher I had a crush on when he was trying to help me light a Bunsen burner (note: he's not "The Teacher" who I refer to at times, who was from the last couple years of high school: this was a nice, innocent crush, and he was very kind to me once he knew).

Anyway, the matches: I can do the wooden kind where you strike on the outside of the box, but the regular paper kind are very challenging for me. If I'm ever stuck in the wilderness with just a book of paper matches--well, it's been nice knowing you all.