No worries as far as I am concerned, especially since I did NOT see any predatory behavior on your part displayed here; like others have said, it sounds like you've been making some bad choices for YOU, in order to try to alleviate how much you are hurting = I think we've all done that, right? Take care, and don't beat yourself up too badly, OK? Your friend, Peanut

<font color=blue>HI FROM PEANUT </font color=blue>