Yeah, it was a nice session. I think there was less anxiety on my part. Though maybe when I was trying to explain to him why I felt there was less anxiety on my part I became anxious again...

I think there might be something to the notion that not being able to see his reactions or lack thereof... I am really very aware of those in person and they affect the direction of my conversation. There was some of that on the phone too.

I have this saying 'if you want to be treated as a person then you need to act like a person'. That is my take on the whole 'feminine' thing. I see people trying to do some combination of sexy and competent and they do seem to battle with guys not really treating them as competent / seeing them as a sexual object. My motto is: 'if you want to be treated as a person then you need to act like a person'. And that is my justification for dressing conservatively... Not dowdy exactly... Just not in a way that draws attention to my legs or my butt or my breasts...

And I can tell he doesn't exactly agree... I wonder what his wife is like lol. I can tell he doesn't exactly agree. Even on the phone. He was like 'yeah, you've said that before' in a slightly dubious tone.

We chatted a bit about whether some women act all feminine and posture themselves with their butt and boobs thrust out because they are making a conscious effort or whether it is just natural to them. We concluded we didn't really know...

Then I thought... There is a fair amount of masculine posturing (swaggering etc) in some circles, too. I guess you do what was reinforced by your parents / peer group and after a while it becomes natural to you. Funny how the guys in my circles don't really feel the need to swagger or engage in he-man ******** and yet the females (sometimes) feel the need to dress in a matter I consider provocative... Weird indeed...