Hello, it's been a busy few days. I had an appointment with my therapist today. We talked about the trauma of me growing up with my mom who was very mentally unstable and an alcoholic and my chaotic life as a child with the things she did, her being irresponsible, getting us evicted over and over again/not having a stable living enironment, her drinking all day, drinking while she was pregnant with me too, doing things like insiting that me and her walk home at 1am (middle of the night) on a highway because she was drunk and got into a fight with her boyfriend, I was 9 years old at the time, had no shoes on, so I walked home with her barefoot since she refused to get back in the car., and I tried to keep her from stumbling into the road because she was drunk to prevent her from getting hit by a car. Things like that, chaotic things that I didn't think had an effect on me. As a child it was all I knew so I thought it was normal, as an adult I know it's not but just felt it was irrelevant to ever bring up to anyone. But I started to see how my severe anxiety issues can be connected to it, so I talked about it for the first time in therapy today. My therapist said she's going to get some trauma recovery material for us to work on the next time we meet, she said she can definitely see how that kind of upbringing can create the severe chronic anxiety issues I have

I'm doing well otherwise, my mood is good, I will post a couple pics from today in a minute

I hope you all have a peaceful rest of the week