I'm trying to cope best I can. Woke up before 6AM with intense racing thoughts which went away fairly quickly, thank god. I had some remarks made at me in another forum and it really disturbed me: a classical guitar forum. I just posted that I had trouble playing a piece of music and members jumped on me. Music has been a large part of my life; all I did as a teenager was stay in my room and listen to music and play guitar-I'm pretty introverted. I'm starting to enjoy little things since I started Saphris a mth ago in the hospital-I've had anhedonia really bad most of my life. I feel like a different person now even though I'm having panic attacks every morning really bad.