So much. Financial difficulties, barriers and challenges relating to an upcoming home, my brother fighting stage 4 pancreatic cancer, my inability to be as independent in my new home country as I'd like, my inability to effectively speak the local language, my dislike for the particular place where we're currently living and disappointment with places we thought we'd maybe live, my disappointment that my husband's family members and his friends have not been as supportive as I hoped, the fact that my husband is not happy where we are either, the fact that the political situation in my home country is so divisive with possible future threats to the well-being of the poor/middle-class/aged, the lack of passion I feel (because of depression) for things I used to love (dancing, music, nature, cooking/baking/writing), the sadness that the time is not right to adopt a new pet...

It's all very complex. I'm not asking for advice on what I should or shouldn't do in my life, or where I should go/return. Only how best to handle stress. Or if no one knows what to suggest, just support or acknowledge that I'm not alone in dealing with some things in the realm. Or just a virtual hug.