Angel, I don't know if you can hear this or take it in. I know it is easy for me to say. You do not need a relationship right now. You need to take a step back and see yourself and who you are, who you want to be and start moving in that direction. It is not healthy that any "romantic" love should have the overwhelming power you speak of. We all want love. I understand how needy you feel right now. I want you to know that the love and caring here IS REAL and that you can feel better inside of yourself without a romantic interest. When you are more healed inside you will be in a better place to make good choices about relationships. I hope for you that you can look in the mirror and say it is not your problem that the love is not returned, you are good and you are going to get healthy. You must make yourself the priority. I know you don't feel it now but ever hear "fake it till you make it'? Be loving to yourself the way you have been putting love out there for the other. Tell yourself that you deserve love and then give it freely to yourself. You will then be able to feel it more from us here and your face to face supports. Please try to take this in. You do not deserve to suffer.