Since last evening, I've felt pretty okay. The "episode" ended. Now I feel more or less normal.

This evening I want to finish the livingroom and make a meatloaf. It's like I was in quicksand and got pulled out. Now if I can just sustain this for a reasonable interval - at least till mid Jan.

I don't know what happens to my mind that I get so low, and it just ends when it ends.

I do think that lack of good habits and a steady routine is what makes me susceptible to going off the rails like I do. I do have to work on having more structure. Good suggestions have been offered to me in this thread.