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Dec 17, 2022, 05:35 PM
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Member Since: Jul 2019
Location: Downtown Vibes, California
Posts: 15,701
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Originally Posted by nonightowl
I’m not ashamed to say I’m in a place where I need to RECEIVE whether it’s a hug, a listening ear, or a kind gesture of some kind....
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No, there's nothing there to be ashamed of. I'm feeling much the same way this season.
I joyfully poured an immense, constant amount of unconditional love into raising my family and the result I'm seeing is yes, two successful children. But my daughter is terribly selfish and lacks empathy while she climbs the professional academic ladder. My son, while a truly admirable, lovely young man, is extremely focused on his professional pursuits, then on de-stressing from the hard work he's done. So he and my DIL take off to exotic locations all over the globe and yes, I am delighted for them! But it hurts. How's about they spend a couple of hours at my boring little apartment some time?
I spend time, every day, crying. Feeling like I've thrown my life away. And my husband is disrespectful to me, sometimes truly abusive. He's cruel.
Bitter, hurt, horribly isolated. Wounded. I desperately want to see things a different way, but I don't know how. For the first season in my life I really do not know how, and that is scaring me terribly; I don't want to live like this. Do you, owl? I mean it sincerely, no judgment: do you want to remain hurt and bitter, or do you want to find a different way?
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