Oh dear, I'm sorry I didn't see this last night.

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I like what nightbird has to say ... I'd also like to say - "don't give up" no matter how corny that sounds. If drugs aren't working for you, and neither is your current doctor... find a therapist, or find another doctor to help. It really can make a huge difference if you've found a 'good match'.