@cool09, I'm sorry you're struggling so much with your bipolar disorder and mental health professionals understanding. If this is any consolation, I've had long periods when my episodes were impossible to control. However, that period did eventually ease and end. I know when they go on and on it's hard to imagine they can. My guess is it's part of the kindling effect, where one episode makes it more likely for other episodes and the "ups and downs" of the disorder seem like a roller coaster impossible to stop. But it eventually does. Please keep doing your best to fight it, advocating for yourself fiercely.