My life changed for the better once i accepted that i was a POS - that i didnt keep my commitments, that i was generally unreliable even though i would do a good job to satisfy myself, oh - lots of other things. And yes i blame my parents who were terrible role models and liars themselves and actively discouraged me from doing well.

But finally the pressure of thinking i am perfect has stopped. So - make amends and try to luve a peaceful life and help others when you can and try not to be a pain in the butt.