I’ve done my best to stay busy and keep everybody’s spirits up but I can feel mine sinking day by day as we get closer to Christmas. I’m not eating or sleeping and everything makes me cry. I’m missing my brother. I’ve got good support around me and it’s still an open wound. I’m sure next year will be better. This year is tough.

The maid came and did an outstanding job of finishing up decorating for Christmas. Very festive. Everything looks great. We decided to have lasagna for a meal because everyone is having a tough time. I volunteered to sit in his seat - couldn’t leave it empty.

Aside from this grief….life is good. The new friendships and relationship are mutually nourishing and nurturing. I’m staying busy with things I enjoy. Things are moving along.

I hope everyone has a peaceful night. Much love