I quit all drugs for 2 days.. Cuz I wanted to give my meds a try. I was drinking alcohol - I thought, "This is okay right? No harm.." but tolerance has been increasing and I'm drinking way too much.

My mom took the alcohol away... It's for the best. She asked if I needed to go to the hospital (Cuz I was -and still kind of am- very unstable and dysphoric). She got mad at me too and we argued.

Christ guys.. I just need love - That is all. I love myself.. But I'm so isolated and lonely. My parents + My moms ex have raised me, all being alcoholics. So being neglected so bad in the past (And then realizing that years later), it doesn't give anyone a good feeling.