Thank you all for your wisdom and support.

I had a weak moment and that's why I did what I did. I wasn't well last night when I wrote to her. I was frustrated and angry. She's actually a friend of mine - more like an acquaintance, but we've talked on the phone before.

I know the best revenge is living well - this is hard. I feel great one day and terrible the next. I am progressing, but then I take a step backwards in my recovery.