One week in-
I’m sorry to sound as petty as this is, but I have observed that he didn’t once go back to doing the course beyond the original day he got it and did it while angry at me on my birthday. I have gone on it myself a few times, and suggested we do it together a few times this week. The instructions are for the couple to do it together. We are supposed to ask questions of each other and listen. We are supposed to choose actions to do and do them.

We did the exercises cooperatively together. But each time I got upset because the things stated are so triggering because they are the things that have been issues between us, which were handled badly, traumatically. But I let the anger pass and have kept trying with the course over this week.

We both did do a few small things to bring us closer. There was a thing to do that I took on for me to do for him. I did attempt it, but couldn’t follow through yet. The thing he said he’d do for me, he promptly forgot and made no attempt. So I got upset and called him on it when we looked at the assignment again.

More evidence that he makes promises and puts it right out of his mind.

One week in, it’s a work in progress with small steps in the right direction but glaring issues that are very evident here.

Honestly, I don’t even really know my own feelings in it anymore. I feel like we are two people having to try way too hard and life is not supposed to be like that. The things that have been really hurtful and traumatic are hard to just forgive and forget.