Yeah, I think I can sort-of relate to what you wrote here. I've seen several therapists for short periods over the years. But I never really found any of them to be that helpful. I also have a psychiatrist. He's been helpful in terms of medical management. But that's all he does.

So far as I know, I have no diagnoses. I suppose there must be something written down somewhere for insurance purposes. Probably depression and perhaps anxiety. That's easy. But I don't know as I fit any particular diagnosis either. I do clearly struggle with some depression although it's certainly not debilitating plus I do have anxiety. I also have waged a life-long struggle with my gender identity. And I think I could make a pretty-good case for complex PTSD. One psychiatrist who treated me while I was hospitalized said she thought there might be "a bipolar element" to what was going on with me. (Whatever that meant.)

Despite everything, though, I'm doing okay too. There are issues I could be working on as well. But at my advanced age, it seems pointless to get into it for a variety of reasons. I don't have any friends, or even acquaintances really. I'm what I like to call an "urban hermit." MSF is something of a support, although nowadays I spend most of my time in Games. I don't tend to find many posts in other forums to which I feel I have anything to contribute. And I rarely post my own threads anymore. (Few members reply to them when I do.)