I'm so sorry to hear that. I'm also in a broken marriage now and I didn't do anything with the signs as my wife is conflict adverse so she will leave a problem to grow rather than address it.

Over the years she slowly has changed and we all change over time, relationships should evolve with mutual respect and love. But if she is not including you or distancing herself from you it's pretty much a given that she is not invested in the relationship. I would much rather have my wife angry and argue with me than the years of silence keeping the peace, not having her needs met and slowly drifting apart until its too late to do anything.

I am having feelings of wanting to hug my wife or show physical closeness because I'm hurting and I do care and love her, but I don't want to push her away. It's hard to want to be close to someone when you know they want to avoid being close to you.

How did she respond to your kiss and affection? Do you think it helps or pushes her away more? I'm very scared to do anything to push my wife away anymore than we are.

It sounds like you have done all you can for your end of the bargain. The reality is we can't make someone love us, and though they may have loved us at one point, the feelings just are not there. Both parties have to put in the effort and unfortunately the one who tries the hardest ends up being hurt the most.

Best wishes to you and you are not alone even though it feels that way. One day at a time celebrate small wins and work on yourself and treat yourself kindly.