This is tough going, isn't it. Even the thought of making progress towards finding my voice has the ability to trigger me given the right parameters, because (your favourite word!) parts of me are so desperate not to voice any of this. I managed to censor my language when I 'shouted' at you. I am really grateful that you don't take it personally. I'm really grateful you understand where it comes from. I'm really grateful that you take it as an opporyto explore how I am feeling. Thank you. You are pretty awesome, you know. I'm glad we got back on track after last week, and I am glad you see how well these second sessions are working. I did what you suggested today, had a brief look back at my therapy journal, and even only a few months ago it used to feel like you were that speaker, not even really aware you were there. That feels like it has changed.
I hope you have a good Christmas and New Year's, and I look forward to getting back to work in January. We still have a great deal to do.
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