I'm scared if I don't lose weight no one will love me. I've been doing exercise for 1 hour daily now and still haven't lost anything I don't understand. It's not like I sit around eating cakes. I know my sleep is terrible I couldn't afford melatonin so it was like 3 days of terrible sleep and then my mum gave me a benzo I don't know how to overcome this fear. I don't want to feel shamed for my bigger body but society makes you feel that way and I'm lost and losing hope and it's making me sad. I don't want diabetes I don't want it to be this hard I just want to be healthy and at my old weight before stupid olanzipine. I curse olanzipine!!! Imagined if I stayed on that trash I'd be the size of the door!