Dear K,

Coming to Rs parents' house is always a little poignant for me, because I cannot get you out of my mind while I am here. A part of my mind has placed you in this role as Mother in Law I think, and I can't seem to untangle it! I mean, don't get me wrong, I know logically you aren't, and I know rationally that they are not you, but for some reason this part of my brain keeps trying to convince me otherwise. It's trying to do what it does best... To make sense of an otherwise senseless situation, I think. As humans we seek order and logic, and because of who and how you were to me, this part thinks you must have that kind of role in my life. Anyway, it makes me happy, to think of you, and I don't think I'm hurting anyone. I hope, as any future relationship between us grows into what it is destined to do so, my brain will be able to understand it more for what it is, and stop trying to shoehorn you into a make believe role. If that makes any sense!!

Oh, and I am so very pleased you will, like last year, save the gift to open on Christmas Day, because I know then that I will be with you in spirit, on your mind and in your heart. Love you loads, and wishing you and yours a very Happy Christmas.