(((((tucker ))))))

i had read this post last year.. it came up just about the time i returned to PC after a few years absence.... i feel blessed i was able to read it then, and now.....

tucker, you say such an important thing... the feelings i have that these were the last words you had for us here really is something i cant describe well..

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when your at this stage in your life as i, a coment is felt i'm aloud to make. ppl here talk in circles, same old stuff from someone else on a different day. u have so much to live for, push it to the limit. i don't care how bad it hurts you.

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how many, many, many times i have thought this to myself.... the critical place and time we find ourselves in the Earths' and humanities evolution does not escape me...

i read these words and i feel a torment inside of what this planet has become....

i dont wish to focus on negatives, but i feel very concerned about the next 50 years.... what is left for the children?

the circles we have all gone in... throughout history.... the repeating cycle of destruction and growth... it seems to me i am a miniature replica of all that the Earth herself has had to endure at the hands of people like myself...

and it continues... this circle of collapse and rebirth.... how much more can people and the planet endure?

i ask myself about these concerns.. about going in circles... i ask myself, 'how do i change this cycle?"

i know that for me, i had to come to a place on the path i walk.. a place where i could stop and look around.... see what i was doing that was contributing to my own, my communities, my Earths ill health...

was i part of the problem?

as i answered myself, the full sorrow of the truth came home to me.... yes, i was part of the problem....

i wasnt kind enough to others... i failed to consider the effect of my own actions... i presumed i was a small and insignificant person and what little i added to the Earths' dilemma really didnt matter.... i was so wrong to think that...

ive since been able to understand how each of us is important in our own way and what each of us gives is powerful....

ive learned that my actions are something that i should consider carefully... it does have an impact...

even if i only affect one person negatively, that person will affect others, and so on....... if it works in the case of negative energy, it must also work in its opposite direction...

i began to be a little more positive... saying a positive thing when able...

ive watched my own little world change... people are more considerate of me than before... it must be because i chose first to be considerate of them.. people have a hard time being rude and cruel if they are being treated with kindness and regard....

i chose to escape the circle i was in.. it wasnt doing me or anyone any good.......

thank you (((tucker))))))))) may you rest in peace always.........