First Id like to say its very brave of you to admit you have fictitious disorders.

Second - your questions about dissociative disorders, symptoms, problems and behaviors now need to be answered only by your treatment provider. they will give you the information as it pertains directly to you and your diagnosis, symptoms, problems and behaviors.

Third information you may not be aware of...

since March 2022, (when the new DSM 5 TR was made public) everything you find by way of the internet, movies, books and other media-based ways has been removed from being dissociative related problems, symptoms and so forth, and everything you find in media-based ways (the internet and so forth) says a person does NOT have that problem.

Thanks to the new standards put in place, the internet world is by large moving ....away..... from discussing specifics of disorders, diagnostics, symptoms and so forth.

Sure, there are some websites and forums out there that still stick to the pretending/ fake and roll playing of mental disorders (fictitious disorders imposed on self and so forth)

but most good, reputable sites are now moving away from that and into using forums in a more self-help more healing way.

Rather than supplying constant discussions / complaints about problems, symptoms, behaviors associated with dissociative disorders, rather than the roll playing of posting as alters and so forth, dissociative disorders forums around the internet are having more and more healthy and healing discussions.

for example

some talk about how they are doing more offline journaling, while leaving out of their posts identifying information such as dissociative specifics of their journaling, symptoms, problems, behaviors, that they journal about.

Some talk now about how they are feeling much better now that they dont search out videos, books and so on. leaving out descriptions of symptoms, problems and behaviors associated to dissociative disorders.

Some talk about how they are being more mindful, more grounded, leaving out descriptive information about dissociative disorder related symptoms, problems and behaviors. Some talk about grounding exercises that are ....not.... dissociative specific, can be used by anyone regardless of mental disorder.

in many sites Im on, those like me, with dissociative problems, symptoms and behaviors talk about how pleased we are that our treatment providers are now working with us where they are following the new standards of not focusing on alters and trauma specifics of the past. more on healing now in the present.

my point by large those who have dissociative disorders, dissociative related issues are following the new standards of keeping their dissociative related problems, symptoms and behaviors out of the media-based ways now and between their self and their treatment providers, while using media-based ways in a more self-help healing way.

And people now since the release of the DSM 5 TR, are being more careful of not feeding into other persons disorders or curiosities by posting and answering specifics on symptoms, problems and behaviors. if they do put their very real problems out there in media-based ways it now runs the risk of no longer being associated with their dissociative disorder.

Having dissociative disorders is not a game to play, nor a whim to have. or create by way of fictitious disorder imposed on self.

it's a disorder no one who really has it wants to have and those that really have it work very hard with their treatment providers to heal from it, sometimes for a decade or more.

my point as frustrating as it is, you won't find information on the internet any longer that will allow you to believably add dissociative disorders to your fictitious disorders imposed on self.

The real information is now in the hands of the treatment providers. not in media-based ways. what you find in media-based ways for mental disorders now rules out having that problem, symptom or behavior.

my suggestion is if you feel you have a dissociative problem or are curious about dissociative disorders contact yours or a mental health treatment provider who can answer your questions as they pertain directly to you, diagnose and treat the problems you may be having.