Yes, agreed. And spiritual experiences like I've had makes it such a struggle to doubt the existance of, as you call it, life. It's just that believing in him is also a struggle. I really think he did wrong by us in creating us, if he did. I understand it, cause as Silent Void said, the guy's basically omnipotent, immortal, and bored. Probably a bit mad too, by our standards. What isolation does to you. So maybe given time I can forgive him creating us, but I still think the act in itself was kind of evil. Other than that, I can forgive his flaws as a parent, but creation really feels like the original sin to me (and not Adam eating from the tree of the knowledge of good and evil).