And in therapy I have learned many many coping techniques.. I would say it is like falling into a well....at first I ended up at the bottom and didn't know how... now i am able to feel the ground give way and I can even put my arms out to try and grab something ...but eventually I end up back in the hole...is it me???...am I the failure???? Did I not work hard enough...Am I just not smart enough to get it... I don't know...