So, I was half expecting to hear from him on Christmas Day since he messaged me on Thanksgiving Day - but nothing. He didn't send any kind of a message. Maybe he's done hoovering and maybe he's finally given up. I admit that a part of me wanted to hear from him, but most of me did not. A part of me is hoping he is suffering. And that's my vengeful side. And I do have a vengeful side. I can be vindictive. I mean, I partially married my husband to get revenge on an ex fiance who hurt me very badly. What a stupid move that turned out to be!

I am not proud of this aspect of myself, but it is what it is and I'm not beating myself up over it. I just want him to hurt as much as he's hurt and harmed me.