I also think you’re blaming yourself harshly.

I don’t think life is as simple as an upward progression whereby we get more mature and responsible as time goes on, I think we can have ups and downs. Doing well then maybe not so well, there can be lots of reasons for this. It doesn’t mean we’re at fault. We’re human, we don’t come with a manual.

I’m so sorry for the loss of your father, it sounds like you’re struggling with this profound loss. Would you like to talk more about this?