I'm a little nervous today. My psychiatrist office have double booked him via telehealth to see me today so I can get my meds in ASAP. I don't have a strong rapport with him, and I can't explain to you way-- I really can't -- but he leaves me feeling uncomfortable and I feel judged a lot. I don't feel comfortable talking to him. But right now it's all I have, so I need to make sure I have my bipolar meds at least on hand. I did just take my last pills this morning. I don't know if he'll be apt to prescribe the Adderall until I see him in person. (I've been without that a bit longer, I missed my appointment a week or two ago) so in the end, any withdrawal has happened and I'm OK right now being off of it, although I don't feel so great.

I'm a bit concerned. It's 1:13PM and I haven't slept since I woke up at 7AM yesterday. I've been in a good mood, lots of energy.. and I just can't fall asleep. I lied in bed for 3 hours with no luck. I don't know if it's a warning sign or not... but I do know I'm not used to this.

Wish me luck with my appointment. I hope he isn't mad I made an emergency appointment with him. I'm concerned he'll be angry or scold me. I'll keep you updated.