Have had my share of suicide attempts (starting at 15)--last one 1 1/2 years ago to my dismay (54 now). I had been stable for 5 years prior to that (bipolar 1). But I have found that after an attempt I get an almost relief from stress & cares of life. I think "I could be dead"--what does this or that matter? It gives a sense of relief from the overwhelming depression somehow. Maybe what cutting does, from what I've read.

So I am definitely seeking new methods of coping (have very high degree of anxiety daily, too) through therapy & going to have an intake next week to check out the appropriateness of a DBT group. I am searching aggressively for help to my over-reactions to things, my emotional "melt downs" that are triggered by daily events...No way to live. --Suzy